Life Stages

I can’t help but wonder if there are stages of life that we all must go through, things that have to happen us, experiences that nearly everyone must endure in order to advance in life.

I think if that is true, that we all must go through things, the time that we go through them doesn’t really matter. It doesn’t matter if you’re 13 or 33, there are certain experiences that advance you farther in life. Finding an item in early stage of a video game that you will need in a later stage is the only similarity I can come up with right now, knowing that if you don’t find the golden feather early enough, you’ll be forced to return to get it later and waste more time to complete the game.

Some of us have experienced so much at such a young age that in later years, when others are going through those same things we can relate but surely it has to be different, age alone must make things more difficult.

I had a conversation the other night with a good friend about relationships. I wonder if all relationships go through the same stages as well. I guess I was an early starter compared to some, I did things, said things, and experienced things much earlier than others. Looking back, I can see that some of those experiences helped me and others definitely hurt me later in life, I’m not saying my way is the right way at all. Writing this I wonder, the people I knew in high school who got married at 18, did they have to deal with those stages while they were married and have a rocky several years or maybe end in divorce? I can’t imagine being emotionally mature enough to be married at 18, although I’m sure I thought I was.

I think the older I get, the more I realize that the zeal I had in my younger years hasn’t necessarily been beneficial or detrimental, but more educational, whether I was mature enough to learn anything from it is something I will just have to wait to find out.

Making decisions

My job is about making decisions. I get up and go to work everyday to make decisions. I make the place work well.
I live to make decisions. My entire life I’ve been the one to make the tough decisions about just about everything in my life. From the time I was a small child, the times I struggled with relationships, the times I struggled with where my life was taking me and which path to take. I usually do not have problems making tough decisions. I seem to have a knack for finding the best route through the murkiness that is life.
As I look forward into my life, the days, months, and years ahead, I see some very tough decisions coming. Not just in my life, but in the lives of others around me. I can only hope that I will have the strength and wisdom to make those decisions with the same faith and vigilance that I have in the past.
The storms are rolling in tonight, both in the skies and here on solid ground.

Changes ahead?

The words “I’m feeling analytical today” just popped into my head.
I’m not sure what that means really, it just popped up.
It’s overcast and a bit rainy today, its got my sinuses messed up and generally has me in a poor mood. I need sunlight poeple!
A new school year bring all new drama right? Nothing new here. Friends, relationships, and social things in general are causing drama lately. I feel like I should exclude specifics right now, but suffice to say that I feel like great changes are due anytime. I’m just not sure what.
I guess I’m just going to stick to my thing, school, work, extra-work, Sudoku, poker… that takes up everything now, except weekend, nothing is going to come between me and those, that’s my “me” time.
I need to just win the lottery and then I coudl deal with all new problems. $92 million this Saturday.

It’s snowing

It’s snowing today… yesterday it was 65 degrees and slightly overcast now it’s 25 and snowing… I hate Indiana. It’s finally a holiday weekend coming up, I have 5 days off! woo hoo…. Not that I really have anything to do but still, it’s time to just hang out I guess. Emmy’s coming home tomorrow, I’m going to pick her up and stuff… We’re gonna hang out sometime this week. Should be cool… sorta like old times I guess… Do you ever think about how you became who you are, all of us are dealt different hands in life. I have friends who have been through some of the most horrific things I can imagine, yet somehow they get through it. Life changes us everyday, we just have to find the good in it and move on. I think that even the most tragic events can have good points that we should all focus on. Yes, we should grieve and mourn, but at the same time, move on. I think I’ve been doing a lot of that in the past few months. Life has dealt me some very hard things to tackle this year, but still I feel like I’ve came out ok. Jobs, friends, relationships have all changed this year. Most of them I didn’t’ even see coming but I’ve learned to deal with them very well I think. I had an interesting weekend. Went to Indy on Friday, had a lot of fun. Some things happened that maybe they shouldn’t have, but still I think they had to in order to make sense of the situation. I made a promise to two very important people a while back, I’m glad to say that I’ve kept that promise for a long time now. I have been so tempted so many times but every time I manage to keep my head on my shoulders and make the right decision. Sometimes the one thing you want isn’t the best. Tough decisions to make in the months and weeks ahead… I’m going to choose what’s best for me I guess. Just try to get what I want, and hopefully everything else will fall into place…