Stressed

I’m stressed out. I’m so stressed out that I took a 5 mile bike ride tonight just to clear my head, if was a bit warmer and I wasn’t sick, I probably would have enjoyed it more but it was a bit of a help.

Work has just been going like crazy lately, but it’s not the good kind of crazy. I’ve got to go to Ohio tomorrow so I’ll have some peace once I get on the road maybe. Then Thursday it’s right back to the grind.

I planted some carrots and cilantro in the garden here at The Green last night, those both should be ready to harvest by Memorial Day or even a little before maybe. I’m ready to plant other stuff, but its still early yet.

I’m trying to find some new music, I’ve tired “what’s hot” on all the lists lately, Vampire Weekend, Owl City, etc. Not my thing really, basically all of their songs sound just like the last one. My music is just getting a bit old, I want a refresh. The summer of ’95 was magical for music, Morrisette, Oasis, Green Day, Weezer all came into my consciousness. I need another summer like that one where I can load up on music for another 15 years of enjoyment.

I’m still sick, I can’t seem to shake the head cold I’ve had over a week now. Maybe I just need more rest.

A Paradox

It’s amazing to me that every time I carefully set down to write something, anything really, I totally lose all interest in it. I have nothing left to say. I used to say everything and anything. Times have changed. I wrote nearly a quarter of a million words in just a few years by writing my thoughts on life each evening.

Now, I can’t even manage a few words a day about anything at all.

I don’t like the world around me any more. My life personally is going just fine, I’m OK. The world however, is just atrocious, I can’t stand just about anything on the news, conversation has all but left me.

Communication is dead.

Communication is key.

Sometimes just typing out as I think leads me to places I never thought to go. I buy books for writing, my chosen medium is pixels. I live to write with pens I’m scared to lose. The systematic way never worked for me, planning, charting, editing, testing, I’d always rather just let it out there, there’s not much to just put out there though anymore.

I catch my internal narration taking me places I once went, I usually stop before I get there.

I can’t help but wonder if life has gotten that much more complicated or I’ve just let my guard down, become discouraged and let myself become too wrapped up in things that I just didn’t notice before. I lean towards the latter.

I’m consumed by media I despise. That ends now, useless drivel is getting thrown out. I’ve got to get back in the groove, even if the groove has changed so much I’m not sure I recognize it anymore.

Music used to be the road that could take me anywhere. It used to make the worst day seem OK and the best day become memories that will live in my mind forever. This spoken word has devolved into noise to occupy my mind instead of focusing on the silence around me.

I feel my mind going from a fit and keen to wasting and indifferent to nearly everything. I’m consumed by thoughts of non-importance.
I think I just might not have anything to say…

Apple cuts iTunes pricing, DRM

Apple is cutting the price of some songs in its market-leading iTunes online music store to 69 cents and plans to begin selling all tracks without copy protection.

via Apple cuts iTunes pricing, eases copy protection – Tech and gadgets- msnbc.com.

I checked out my songs today, only about 70 or so of them are available with DRM right now. I’m excited to see what music becomes cheap and what music goes for $1.29, hopefully it won’t be stuff that I would want to buy.

As far as the DRM stuff goes, I would love to have DRM-free music but I also have totally bought into the iTunes service, complete with a car stereo that directly connects to my iPod (one of 3) and so on. But in the end I do believe that DRM is bad for music and should be stripped. I’ve been burned by the authorization issues with iTunes before and would be happy to see them disappear.

AppleInsider | Rumor: Apple’s iTunes going DRM-free

AppleInsider | Rumor: Apple’s iTunes going DRM-free starting Tuesday [u]

Apple is believed to be on the verge of an end-of-year push that would start by finally offering unprotected iTunes Store music from all major labels…

Yeah, I could be pretty excited about this except for the fact that it may not be retroactive and I’ve bought over 1,000 songs over the last 4 years. Is that a lot????

CNET says:

No, none of the deals is final as of Monday afternoon and one source told me it’s unlikely Apple will have anything to announce regarding DRM-free music from the top labels before the end of the year.

So alas I will wait until I know something more but if this is true, it’s pretty exciting. DRM is bad and seems to usually hurt people who aren’t doing anything wrong just not within the narrow rights they are given.

Apple mulls unlimited music bundle – FT.com

Apple mulls unlimited music bundleBy Andrew Edgecliffe-Johnson in London

Apple is in discussions with the big music companies about a radical new business model that would give customers free access to its entire iTunes music library in exchange for paying a premium for its iPod and iPhone devices.

This is pretty exciting for me. I would love to have a premium price put on the device or perhaps and addon cost that would allow X songs per month for download or even an unlimited plan. I’m ok with the DRM on iTunes, I have several iPods and nothing else so it really doesn’t even come to be an issue.

What I’d really like to see with this is an iPod priced at say $200-$250 and then an additional cost of $100 per year for 20 downloads per month (240 songs for $0.42/ea.). This would not only make it much cheaper per song, but if all unused songs are forfeited at the end of each month (you can’t carry them over each month) then potentially the profitability of the songs would rise both for Apple and the record companies.

I’m looking forward to seeing this program come to light, I’d imagine it’ll be announced later in the summer, probably at or around WWDC when the Beatles will also be released on iTunes. Two predictions in the same sentence! Yeah!

We’ll see when Jobs wants us to see, I guess.

A house made entirely of prime numbers

I’m basically just going to do a brain dump for you form the past three or four days since I’ve totlaly neglected my blog this week. The end of the school year is fast approachign and all that stuff is coming due of course. I’m happy to say that now I’m down to one last presentation to give before finals. I only have 3 of those so I feel pretty good about school right now.

Thursday was an interesting day, no one was at school basically and we had our huge paper due. The presentation went well no major foul-ups except that I said Vincennes was in the northern part of the state. Oh well. Thursday we all went out for TNH of course, Kyle joined us too. Softball was a bust, we headed to Jen’s instead. After the “1 block” walk to Blockbuster turned into 6 blocks and a stop at McD’s we started watching Three Amigos. Why? I don’t know. No one watched the movie and we all broke off into little groups and just chatted for a while basically. Brooke, Kyle, and Brittany provided ample discussion although I think Kyle was focusing more on the Yankees than our convo. Nothing else major really….

Friday was work. What a day, a huge new, 30,000 lb machine was delievered. Some adjustments had to be made to the buidling to get it in the door, namely, trimming the posts near the doors so that the machine would fit, did I mention these posts were cement and steel.. Yeah, it was kinda cool. The machine is there now, smells like a new car for some reason btw. Friday night Erin went with her cousin to the ballet and Orion and I headed out for some golf. Actually I taught him how to play golf, or at least attempted too. We hit a bucket at Rice’s and then tried out the par 3 course. The course was in horrid shape, greens were covered in weeds basically. I did OK, better than I thought I’d do after taking all of last year off basically. O did so so, mainly because he’s never hit a golf ball before. We went to Pancho’s got some great food and talked to Martin for a bit. That man is hilarious, a great waiter like him is hard to come by. I’m glad that I have people in places to help me out like Martin and Kevin (my hair guy). A quick trip to Walmart followed. The best part of the night though was a long drive through the country with the radio blaring, I mean loud and proud blaring. I had some country going and I just cranked it up and sang my heart out. I needed a night like that, I just drove around aimlessly and had a great time honesly. Finally though I figured I should head in and get some rest, I got in a little before 12.

Satuday I got up, washed the car (like with a bucket and sponge) and cleaned the whole thing out. Its looking pretty good still I must say. Needs a good wax job and no rain for a bit though. I actually havent’ washed the car very well lately, usually a quick run through the cheap place and that was it, no Mike’s since winter probably and no sponge jobs since before winter. I need to take better care of that thing really. Saturday night, Erin made lasagne and had some friends over. Great food, interesting convos, all in all a good time really.

Today, Sunday, I got up and relaxed. It was so nice outside I didn’t want to do anything but be outside soaking up some sun. We got a new grill so I put that together, seasoned it a bit and helped gma with some stuff. I cooked dinner (hamburgers and hot dogs with grilled onions) and ate too much. After dinner Kyle, Orion and I headed out to the park for some catch, that didn’t last long and we headed to Rice’s for another bucket. I gotta get my swing back, my slice is killing me! A quick stop at Jake’s closed out the night.

Now I’m home, it’s way too late, but I have most of the paper written, I should have been working on it all day but it was way too nice to be inside on the computer. Tomorrow I can finish the PowerPoint and be ready to go for 7pm. I gotta get some sleep.

Life needs to slow down

It seems that lately everything is going to fast for me. Almost like its spiraling out of control. I have no idea what’s going on anywhere almost. The holidays are quickly approaching, finals are nearly over. Everything is just in high gear and I’m not ready for it. I don’t ever want to be ready for it. Simpler times where have you gone. Fun and free, remember that time?
I’m camped out in the library now, studying, listening to some music, I’ll probably even do a bit of recreational reading later too, good times. Away from the hustle and bustle that is alive and kicking right outside the window.
I just want things to slow down a bit, so that we can all enjoy the times that we have, it seems that all we do now is rush to the next thing… I don’t want to do that anymore.