Vacation Days 2 and 3

I didn’t forget to blog last night, I was just busy and today was more of the same. Christmas with my family and friends is more than just a few hours on the morning of the 25th, it’s an extravaganza lasting a few days before and maybe the day after too.

Yesterday was glorious. I did absolutely nothing and I loved it! I watched the Colts beat the Texans in basically one half. I finally got dressed around 7 and headed out to meet up with Kyle for our traditional Sunday night tea and talking. Good times.

Today I started bright and early at 8 although I wish it could have been 10 because I really didn’t sleep much the night before. Seriously do that trash trucks have to come at 330 on a Monday morning? We headed to my grandparents for a little Christmas Eve lunch and to open some presents. I got some good stuff really and it’s only just begun.

In the afternoon we headed out to Erin’s for Christmas with her family. An amazing roast beef was waiting as well. I got some really great presents again. A blender (you might not understand but I really wanted one, one with a knob especially), some money to put towards some new glasses which I desperately need, and a pair of leather Chucks are some of the highlights. Erin got me tools, Craftsman, the only kind I want ever, and some nice sweaters and I’m sure there is tons more that I’m forgetting. I love it all and know that I am truly blessed to receive so much.

Tomorrow is Christmas proper and I’m ready. The holidays are hard for me to get in the mood for lately, I just can’t find the spirit. I found it tonight, on the drive home I jammed to some Christmas music and it hit me. The holidays are about giving though, I still have to give something, I don’t know what or how yet but there’s still one thing missing that I do year after year. Just being that lifeline for someone that needs something a bit more than I do, I’ll find the opportunity soon enough I’m sure, though time is ticking.

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday and that your time with family and friends can be as rewarding to you as it has been for me.

Only one post for tomorrow, my traditional post, I’ll update late in the evening or the day after.

No Motivation

So I got up late this morning, ate some left over Subway and read the paper. I went to my uncles to work on some video for about 30 minutes. Now it’s time to study. Let’s review what I have to get done today, or at least this week (if I don’t do it today, it’ll never happen): Study for IB Midterm (Monday), Complete research and writing of J404 journal (Tuesday), Complete marketing question, 2 pages plus (Wesnesday), work on Case Study, 6 pages plus PowerPoint slides (Thursday), Start J404 case, due next tuesday… So there’s all this stuff I basically have to get done today, the problem? I have no motivation what so ever to even touch any of it. This is all very bad. I dont’ know if its just my mood lately or that I can’t get a comfortable place to study lately, either way I don’t want anything to do with school today… Stripes is on too, that’s going to make studying even harder… Here’s to the books!

Why?

That’s the question we should all ask more. Not necessarily in a negative sense either. Just ask yourself why now and then, keep things in perspective, is it really worth it, why? That was probably a bad way to start out a blog entry but its cool no one minds. I’m in one of those moods tonight, one of those where I wish things were the way they were way back when. I don’t’ mean last year, I mean like 5 years ago even, sure something should stay the way they are but some things just suck now that I’m older and dealing with “life” This weekend was kind of uneventful I guess. I got my car on Friday, it rocks. Anyone who wants a ride should let me know, because I love driving it. MP3 CD player is awesome, 180 songs on one CD, how cool is that? I just hung out on Friday, yesterday was crazy though. I helped rebuild our deck, built a walkway in the backyard and painted part of the shed. I was so tired, then I met up with everyone, well not everyone, but anyways we ended up in Swayzee at a party, kegger anyone? None of us drank, but it was fun just to watch everyone else get trashed for a while. Today was so nice; I slept in a bit and then just chilled most of the afternoon. I went to Kokomo tonight to study for my stupid law test, 2 and a half hours… ugh… I dunno, I just haven’t’ been in the mood to share lately I guess. That’s why I haven’t’ written anything … Life is hectic right now, I don’t’ think I know where I’m going or what I hope to accomplish once I get there. I’m going out on Friday with Bethany… haven’t’ seen her in a long time, so it should be cool I guess. I dunno… screw it I’m going to bed, this isn’t helping….

I shouldn’t write this now..

I am so frustrated with everyone right now… I could just scream. This weekend started out well enough with the gang going out to see Butterfly Effect. An absolutely amazing movie. I was in awe the entire time. It’s one of those movies that just grabs you and pulls you in more and more as it goes on. Definitely something to see if you have the chance. After seeing everyone was extremely hyper still at midnight we all decided to go to Steak n Shake. Good times. All in all it was a good night. Some covert drama in the behind-the-scenes part of everything but it’s all good. Saturday is probably when everything started to fall apart, to put it simply and vaguely. I said some things that I shouldn’t have and someone else took it and blew it way out of proportion causing me to lose something I’ve had for 7 years. I had no chance to make it right and now that I know what I do, I’m almost glad it happened. It’s funny how when the cards are really down, people’s true opinions really come out about you. I should have learned along time ago what was going on and go out of things. But as usual I learn the hard way and this is one of those things I’ll have to chalk up to experience. Maybe after the year has passed things will be better. We’ll just have to see how this week is going to go down first. Another interesting thing happened on Saturday too. Someone who would have normally gone out with us didn’t’ on the grounds that certain members of out circle of friends weren’t’ going. Now normally people wont’ show up because of other people being there but this time they wouldn’t go because some people weren’t going to be there. Whatever I guess some people are only your friends when it’s convenient for them. Others just drink themselves into oblivion and try to pass it off as nothing serious and all that other crap. I’m seriously so sick of people today. Anyways moving on with last night, we sat at BWs for like 4 hours and just talked. Nothing important or exciting happened at all. After I got home and crashed around 1 cause I was dead tired I woke up this morning to utter hell breaking lose. Some of it is personal and shouldn’t be put in such a public forum as this, since I know many more people read this than I know. Other stuff is just unbelievable and since I’ve vented about it already in this post I shall leave it alone. Today also was the day that I was going to study since I’ve slacked for about the last week on my HW. Well so far I’ve written a one page case brief and started a 3 page pager… I still have a ton of reading to do, but I’m just not in the mood after everything that’s happened over the past few days. I have to study though, there’s no way out of it. I haven’t’ even showered today… Of course I haven’t’ left the house, but still… I feel that I should maybe shower before bed or something tonight…hmmm… Its also blizzarding tonight… so far we have 2 inches in 2 hours… that’s freakin nuts… tomorrow should be a good drive to work… Also to everyone out there that has a blog… post something now and then… some of you haven’t posted in 2 weeks and I know you have stuff to say. We talked about what you should say. Anyway it’s freakin time to get this stupid paper done…