Life or Something Close

Monday, November 15

People urk me!

People need to learn to mind their freakin business… Seriously, stay out of my personal affairs. You are about to do something that you can’t possibly imagine the repercussions of. You will not only being ruining one friendship but you could possibly destroy something else. A long time ago on this very blog I said that no matter what you said, I had other stuff to say that is much worse, well I didn’t mean it about you, but this time I do. I know things that you think that I don’t, and other people will find out. I don’t appreciate being threatened and I don’t’ appreciate that way in which you did what you did. Now it’s my turn to threaten you. Stay out.
Ok, now that that’s out of the way let me say that the last 3 days have been some of the weirdest I’ve ever lived. First of all, I’m fiending like you wouldn’t believe right now. It’s hard, harder than I thought it would be, so far so good though… Just 7.5 more weeks to go. Erin had a good weekend. She broke/sprained/I don’t know what her ankle yesterday and now she’s on crutches. Fun. Fun. Fun. She’s also been down with the flu… that has to suck; I just hope that I don’t get it from her.
Sunday… why did I even get out of bed? First of all I got up about 1:15 in the afternoon, caught the colts game, finally got dressed at halftime and went to get my books to study a bit… watched the end of the massacre, err… game. And then tried to study some more. I don’t know what it was but pretty much all of yesterday I was in a bad mood. Finally I headed out to Peru, got some gas and food… came home and just tried to relax and find some new music to download. Productive I know. Tried to go to bed about 1130ish since I was kinda feeling tired but instead I just tossed and turned for like 4 hours basically. I would get to where I was almost asleep and then jerk awake. I hate that. Finally got to sleep, then the alarm went off and I started another day. The good news is that I don’t have CIS on Monday which means I don’t have class until 230… sleep… heh. T-day is almost here, too, that means I gotta get to work on my X-mas shopping for Erin… Got some ideas but I still have no idea really. I should really get to class…. .... go there NOW!

Why is marijuana not legal? Why is marijuana not legal?
It's a natural plant that grows in the dirt.
Do you know what's not natural?
80 year old dudes with hard-ons. That's not natural.
But we got pills for that.
We're dedicating all our medical
resources to keeping the old guys erect,
but we're putting people in jail for
something that grows in the dirt?

You know we have more prescription drugs now.
Every commercial that comes on TV is a prescription drug ad.
I can't watch TV for four minutes

without thinking I have five serious diseases.
Like: "Do you ever wake up tired in the morning?"
Oh my god I have this, write this down. Whatever it is, I have it.
Half the time I don't even know what the commercial is. . .
people running in fields or flying kites
or swimming in the ocean.
I'm like that is the greatest disease ever. How do you get that?
That disease comes with a hot chick and a puppy.

The schools now. . . It is all about
self-esteem in the schools now.
Build the kids' self-esteem,
make them feel good about themselves.
If everybody grows up with high self-esteem, who is going to dance in
our strip clubs?
What's going to happen to our porno industry?
These women don't just grown on trees.
It takes lots of drunk dads missing dance recitals before you decide
to blow a goat on the internet for fifty bucks.
And if that disappears, where does that leave me on a Friday night
with my new high speed connection?

Masterminds are another word that comes up all the time.
You keep hearing about these terrorists masterminds that get killed in
the middle east.
Terrorists masterminds.
Mastermind is sort of a lofty
way to describe what these guys do, don't you think?
They're not masterminds.
"OK, you take bomb, right?
And you put in your backpack. And you get on bus and you blow yourself
up. Alright?"
"Why do I have to blow myself up? Why can't I just. . ."
"Who's the fucking mastermind here? Me or you?"

Americans, let's face it:
We've been a spoiled country for a long time.
Do you know what the number one health risk in America is?
Obesity. They say we're in the middle of an obesity epidemic.
An epidemic like it is polio.
Like we'll be telling our grand kids about it one day.
The Great Obesity Epidemic of 2004.
"How'd you get through it grandpa?"
"Oh, it was horrible Johnny,
there was cheesecake and pork chops everywhere."

Nobody knows why were getting fatter? Look at our lifestyle.
I'll sit at a drive thru.
I'll sit there behind fifteen other cars instead of getting up to make
the eight foot walk to the totally empty counter.
Everything is mega meal, super sized.
Want biggie fries, super sized, want to go large.
You want to have thirty burgers for a nickel
you fat mother fucker. There's room in the back. Take it!
Want a 55 gallon drum of Coke with that?
It's only three more cents.

Sometimes you have to suffer a little bit in your youth to motivate
yourself to succeed in later life.
Do you think if Bill Gates got laid in high school,
do you think there'd be a Microsoft?
Of course not.
You got to spend a long time in your own locker with your underwear
shoved up your ass before you start to think,
"You'll see. I'm going to take of the world of computers! I'll show them."

We're in one of the richest countries in the world,
but the minimum wage is lower than it was thirty five years ago.
There are homeless people everywhere.
This homeless guy asked me for money the other day.
I was about to give it to him and then
I thought he was going to use it on drugs or alcohol.
And then I thought, that's what I'm going to use it on.
Why am I judging this poor bastard.
People love to judge homeless guys. Like if you give them money
they're just going to waste it.
Well, he lives in a box, what do you want him to do?
Save it up and buy a wall unit?
Take a little run to the store for a throw rug and a CD rack?
He's homeless.
I walked behind this guy the other day.
A homeless guy asked him for money.
He looks right at the homeless guy
and says why don't you go get a job you bum.
People always say that to homeless guys like it is so easy.
This homeless guy was wearing
his underwear outside his pants.
Outside his pants.
I'm guessing his resume isn't all up to date.
I'm predicting some problems during the interview process.
I'm pretty sure even McDonalds has a
"underwear goes inside the pants" policy.
Not that they enforce it really strictly,
but technically I'm sure it is on the books.

Monday, November 8

I have witnessed a miracle tonight

I saw the northern lights tonight. It's the first time I've ever seen them in person. It was kind of eerie really. The sky was green with hints of orange and it was like the sky was in motion. Sweeping colors all over the place. I love it.
I think I’ve come to the point finally where I have to make some changes with my life. Tomorrow is a new beginning. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life, or some other cliché that means the same… I need to do this, not only for me, but for those around me who have spent so much time and effort trying to make it happen. I want it to; I just can’t seem to get the motivation to stick with it. Well here it is, I will stick with it. By January 1st, it will be done forever. I realize that it’s going to be hard; I realize that it’s going to be really hard. I’m going to be frustrated and cranky. But I have to do it. I want to say right now I’m sorry to all of you about how cranky I’m going to be for the next few days… it’ll pass I promise. What I saw tonight made me realize that there are too many things in this world that are bigger than me that I need to pay attention to and stop paying so much attention to myself. I’m working on the plan of how to do all this exactly, but I’ve got some ideas and that’s where it all has to start.
I’ve also been mulling over another idea for about a month and I think this is probably the best time to start it. I’m going to write a novel. Shocked? I am too. The way I see it, I’ve lived a pretty weird life, maybe I should share it with people. I’m going to write bits and pieces here and there based on some facts that I remember but parts of it will also be total fiction. Haven’t you ever wondered if you were going to live happily ever after? This way I will. J I’ve got an outline started. As things progress I’ll post a link here for you all to start reading and proofreading for me.
I really need to go to bed, it’s been a very thoughtful day, I’m going to fail. I know this, but I’ve got to get right back up and try again. Here’s to the future, here’s to life.

Sunday, November 7

4 posts in one day!

So I've spent most of the day today online dealing with crap. Paid some bills, man I'm broke now. Watched some football. Did some math HW, hate that crap. Finished my Excel project a week early, thank goodness. Then I spent most of the rest of that day working on this blog. It looks different but it’s still not the way that I really want it. Oh well though, I'll get to it when I can.
Tonight I might head over to Chris' to hang out, maybe watch some more football. For some reason, I just can't find anything to do today, I've just been chilling, I suppose it's nice, but still. I'm bored. Do you remember these? What's up with that obscene shade of green?
Saturday Erin and I went out Christmas shopping, I got stuff for her brother and my g-ma. Now I just have to find something for her mostly. I have no idea, so if any of you out there have nay clue and to what buy her, please leave a comment and let me know.
Friday we went to BOA in Indy. Saw Northmont play their show and then we headed out to Pan-Am Plaza to watch UMass do their thing. I don’t think Erin was really into it as much as I hoped she'd be. I think marching band is one of those things that if you're not in it, you have no idea what to think of it when you see it and really don't want to find out what it's all about. Oh well, it's cool.
This week promises to be boring really. I don't have much to work on really for school; I just know that I need to stay ahead on my Math stuff since I've got a test in there next week.
Ya know, I think profs get together to make all their tests in the same week. I have a project due and two tests all in the same day. How not fair is that? Oh well enough complaining I'm headed to go get gas, and then off to Chris'... I haven't left the house all day, gotta do something.

Buy me buy me buy me!

Hey just to get this out, before ti gets too late to start shopping. X-mas list for 2004... buy me something.

Done for now

OK so for some reason I've totally hosed my old CSS. You remember the one with the white background and blue text? Yeah, not working so well. So this is where it's going to stand for a while. I posted some new "you say I think" stuff. I have a ton of HW to get done today, if I make it, I'll post more since it's been a while.

New Layout

OK so in working on this new layout, I think I've totally hosed my blog... Comments don't work, some posts are garbled... this is going to be a long day

Monday, November 1

Are you sick of the election yet?

I am. I was just sitting here doing my math homework and realized that most of the time when I think of a Bill Clinton I totally associate it with the SNL character played by Darrell Hammond. Not the actual former President of the United States of America. *begin soap box talk*
The election process in America is becoming less and less about issues that really matter to most people and more about slandering the other candidate. I'm sick of hearing about who did what to whom and who will do what if/when they are in office. I'm not voting tomorrow, let me tell you why. First off, I didn't get my absentee ballot stuff sent in time and I won't be around tomorrow. Secondly, I just don't care any more. I realize that whoever we elect will greatly influence a lot of things that will directly affect me, but I'm sick of it. For the last year all we've heard is how people are trying to spin the news a certain way to benefit a certain candidate. I've never been out of the country, but from what I hear the news in other parts of the world is greatly different. Whatever spin is put on it here; it's not the truth probably anyways.
I dunno I'm sick of the whole democratic process, let them have at it tomorrow, I'm going to enjoy my Tuesday like any other day with a barrage of "election updates" tomorrow night.
SNL is hilarious. Tonight is the election special, this is what politics should be about. Dana Carvey plays Bush Sr. and Perot perfectly. I love it. Will Farrell does pretty good with Bush II also.
I hate the rain, it rained all day today. I miss the sun already. My sunburn is gone now and I'm done molting. I didn't go to MNF at BW's tonight cause no one else was going, instead I came home and did homework.... woo hoo I should go call Erin and get to bed soon.
Let me just sum up everything I've said with one word from the 2000 Presidential debates.... Strategery