Life or Something Close

Saturday, February 28

Insignificant to some...

My rock!But to me this is huge! I foudn my rock again! It was buried in the seats of my car. Thank God I cleaned today, now everything is going to be all right.

Friday, February 27

It's done...

Soundtrack of my life: Stay (Wasting Time) - Dave Matthews Band

Me and MattBad quote to steal I know. But tonight just felt like the end of everything. Our gang once consisted of 5 guys and various girls coming and going. Well the group broke apart one summer and got back together off and on for a while. Then marriage, Army and everythign else got in the way. 3 of the guys are married ro getting marrie dnow, Matt and I were the only ones left. Now he's gone. I'll miss him, he is like a brother to me. We've been best friends through so much that I can't imagine him being gone so long. What do you say to your best friend when he's leaving for a year plus and will be getting shot at on a daily basis? It was hard to say goodbye, I know that he's smart and well trained so I have no doubt that he'll come back to all of us. It's going to be a long year though... Our prayers are with you man... Godspeed

Thursday, February 26

A great movie but...

Soundtrack of my life: Recently - Dave Matthews Band

I saw The Passion of the Christ tonight. Most of the gang was there. I would have to say I give it a B+. It was a great story, truly one that I will buy and watch over and over again, but it was a bit gruesome at times. I realize that it's based on the actual story but it really got to me a bit when the blood started pouring out. I will say that it is not a movie for the weak stomach or younger children. However, as a Christian, it is something that I think everyone mature enough to handle the graphic violence should see it. Clearly based on the Catholic perspective it tells the last 12 hours of Jesus' life, flashbacks bring in important parts of the Gospels, Last Supper, Sermon on the Mount, etc. Those were great. Mary is a central character of course and is played wonderful by the actress. A lot of people were crying, I was almost to tears myself. It truly was horrific how He was treated; no one deserved to be treated so cruelly. The best part is it doesn't just end with Mary holding Him after he is taken off the cross, you see the glory of Him rising, truly a moving moment. All in all it is a must see, if you aren't sure of your Christian beliefs, this one will put you right back in to perspective of where it all started.

Wednesday, February 25

This is the best

On a totally separate note, check this out. This is so much funnier than the razor joke from the other day. It's classic, I first read this back in '97 or somethin, read it you will not be disappointed. Unfortunately the list is defunct now. Enjoy!

I got tickets!!!

I'm going tonight... I'll post something when I get back, this is so going to rock!

Tuesday, February 24

It's been too long again

Soundtrack of my life: REM - Imitation of Life -

Jake!It's been too long since I've written anything so this may be pretty long. Last weekend was pretty cool, we did stuff we've never done before which was definitely cool. Went to Ben's on Friday and just chilled. Played a game called SceneIt. If you haven't played it, go do it right now. It's awesome. Saturday was better though. Jake and I went to Purdue to hang out with Adam, his friend, and his roommates. It was rocking. Started out as a sausage fest but then a few gals showed up and really it wouldn't have mattered either way cause I think we had just as much fun as we could have if more people would have been there. Jake is definitely cool, he knows why. We just basically hung out, played cards, made a few late night phone calls, and played PS2 til about 4am. Good times. Sorry to those of you who got calls a bit too late. Proving yet again that it's a small world, we met a girl from N. Miami who lives about 5 miles from us and is a friend of a friend basically. Mandy came over for a bit too, she didn't' stay long but it was cool just to hang out I guess. Sunday, we got up around 4 hours too early; techno in my ear at 930 is not cool. We got some McD's and then headed home. Sunday night I went to Starbucks and studied for my Law test that I had tonight. Another small world story, James, they guy I hung out with in MS and part of HS is Ben's cousin... he showed up at Starbucks, I hadn't seen him since graduation. Monday of course I went to work, and we played ball, then I went over to Matt's and hung with him. He's leaving on Thursday, I'm bummed. What do I say? How do you say goodbye to someone for a year when it could be goodbye forever. I'm torn, it's just an odd feeling knowing that your best friend is going away for a year or more and will be shot at on almost a daily basis. He knows what he's doing though and he has faith that he'll be ok so I guess I should be ok with it.
I just got my Law grade 97% that's definitely cool. I only got an 80% on my brief but that's ok still have an A in the class. This weekend I hope to go see The Passion of the Christ. It's getting a lot of good press and bad too unfortunately. I think it'll probably be something that everyone should see. A lot of people are going to be gone this weekend so it's kind of a hit or miss thing probably about what I'm doing, I just know that I'm going out and having fun somewhere with someone. I should go do something else now, leave a comment or something....

Friday, February 20

The funniest thing I've read in a really long time. Check it out. See you later all

Tuesday, February 17

I've neglected this thing too much in the past few days. It's been like 5 days since I've posted anything of relevance. I apologize to those of you who read this. Most of you know why I probably haven’t been posting and I hope you all understand. I am not going into the details of what happened but last weekend wasn't great for me overall. I'm getting over it majorly now. I have decided that now is the time for greatness, this is a defining moment for me. I'm moving on and starting anew. I should have done this long ago I realize but I just saw the candle burning and didn't want to put it out.
So other things that have happened this weekend. Friday was kind of cool actually, it seemed like it might turn in to a bust but then once everyone realized that there were 10 of us instead of the usual 5, it was all good. We hung out, watched movies, played X-Box, and just chilled. Not necessarily all together at any one time but still it was good for all of us I think. Plus it was cheap! Then on Saturday we hung out again and did much of nothing. Watched the IU game, just chilled, ate, and then played some b-ball... Biggest group yet. Then we watched Super Troopers, dumb movie, but funny dumb. Sunday I spent most of the day trying to study for my philo test that I had today and think I might have actually done OK on, though we'll find out next week when I get it back. Went and played ball again, and actually played again last night too. Yesterday we had a meeting at work, basically I need to get it in gear and make some progress on things that I haven't been working on as hard as I should have been. It'll be fine though, just needed some more motivation I guess. Today hasn't been too eventful either really. I went to class, took a test, sat through 2 more classes and now I'm here typing this thing. I have Law still tonight, it's the last class before our test that I'm totally freaking out over. Should be interesting next week, I know I'll be ready to cry.
I wish I could say more to you all about what has happened, but those of you who need to know do and those that don't feel free to ask although don't expect too many details but I still respect this other person and their feelings. I'm moving on though... and honestly, it feels pretty good.
Saturday looks like we're going to Purdue. Should be fun, I don’t' know Adam to well but he's cool enough. Plus I'm sure we're going to meet some people down there :) Next weekend hopefully the thing at BSU will turn out too. That one will probably be better that Purdue but only time will tell. I should get going to class now, didn’t' do the reading as it is, maybe I can cram it all in real fast... later

Monday, February 16

More to come later...

Meanwhile, this is funny to me today...

Thursday, February 12

Blisters suck

So I played ball with the guys last night. Wearing my running shoes (ironic isn't it, me with running shoes). Bad Idea. I have a blister the size of a quarter on my foot now. So today since I hope we're goin to be playing alot from now on, I bought new shoes They're cool I think, comfortable at least. So yeah since I've just realized my own patheticness of blogging about my shoes I'm goign to go do somethin else. I have no date for V-day? Any one else free?

Trojans, not the good kind

For those of you that have the AIM trojean that sends out a link to everyone on your buddy list. Please go here Enter your Sn and hit Submit. It appears to work, also after you do that, check your Add/Remove Programs for BuddyLinks, PSDT Messaging Integration, PSD Tools ChannelUp v1.0 (remove only). If you want more info check CNN. To everyoen else, if you dont' have it, don't open any links that someone IMs you that you are nto expecting. Osama has not been cpatured and Saddam ahs nto escaped.
There is also an email going aroudn that appears to be from Microsoft with an attachment. It's not real! Microsoft does not send out patches through email, go to Windows Update to see if there are updates for your compter. Symantec has removal instructions here if you already have this one too.
I think I may start a separate blog or at least another with some security/virus stuff on it. Alot of peopel seem to get this stuff lately that i know. Might be a helpful little thing. We'll see.

Tuesday, February 10


I had it planned perfect. The night was going to be one for the books. It's gone now. The plans, the memories to be had, never gonna happen. I may have had the wrong idea, either way was fine though, just wanted to share the evening that we've always wished for. What do I do now? Wait until next time I suppose. Hopefully there will be a next time.
I'm sore from basketball last night, but I had fun and I'm looking forward to doin it again. I need to get in shape, maybe that will help things, not likely, but it cant' hurt. Long day at school today, two tests. Did OK on both I think. I'm gonna go find somethin useful to do...

Monday, February 9

Momentarily out of order...

Soundtrack of my life: The First Cut Is The Deepest - Sheryl Crow

This has not been one of my best days. It started off on an icy road watching 3 cars in front of me slide off the road within the same mile of road. Then when I got to work my email wasn't working so I spent the better part of the morning working on my computer to get it working again. This afternoon my plans for the weekend got cancelled. I understand why, but that doesn't' mean I like it any better. There's so much I want to say, but I can't, it's something that I can only say to their face, it ahs to be that way, I can't cheapen it by doing something online like this. I just need that chance to express my true feelings. Maybe someday.
On the totally opposite side of things I am not totally free for Valentine's Day, anyone wanna be my date? I'll probably end up hanging out with the guys er something, not that it's bad, just that I've spent the last 5 holidays alone, I'm sick of it. It sucks not being able to share those special times with that someone special. OH well I'm going out tonight I think so I'll write more alter I guess...

Sunday, February 8

6 hours later...

Soundtrack of my life: Curbside Prophet - Jason Mraz

I've just spent the better part of 6 hours studying today. I wrote 3 papers, read a case, and read like 50 pages on top of that. I still think I need to study for those 2 tests more but I'm done for the night. A while ago I went and rented The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. Not the greatest flick I've ever seen by far. Matter of fact, it was pretty bad. I thin the basis of the whole movie was just to show how they could do special effects and junk. But whatever, it was only 3 bucks... Anyway I think I'm going to head to bed early tonight... I wanna talk to someone online first but if they don't' hurry up; I guess it'll have to wait until tomorrow.

What would you say?

Soundtrack of my life: Piece of Glass - Caedmon's Call

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, I just can't seem to nail down what I think of them right now. Maybe it's just wishful thinking on my part, but I think there's something there, how do I go about finding out though. I just want this all to be over and done with. We'll see how it comes out though I guess.
This weekend has been pretty good really, outwardly that is. Friday we went to the Audio A/Reliant K/NewSong concert. I got a CD by a guy named Todd Agnew, he rocks. Definitely going to be listening to him for a while. I wouldn't say I was as moved by this concert as I was by other concerts but still I enjoyed myself. A new friend has come into the spotlight, although nothing more will come of it, I am still intrigued to get to know this new person better. Saturday I wasted the entire day, I didn't do crap in other words. I finally went out with the gang last night around7ish to Pastariffic and then to see Miracle, it was good, not great but good. I'll probably buy it when it comes out though. Very Apollo 13-ish. This week is going to be a long one; I have tons of stuff coming up at school and stuff at work too. I have 2 test and 2 papers due on Tuesday that I have to study for and finish today hopefully. Its just one of those weekends again where I don't' feel like studying but I know I have to or I'm going to be screwed next week. The next few weekends I'm going to be gone, so I need to stay caught up with stuff and get everything done during the week, between IU on the 14th and Purdue on the 21st I'm going to be busy as crap. It's getting late for everything to be starting, I should go outside and get my books out of the car and get something done, maybe I'll go out tonight or something... later

Wednesday, February 4

A film study

Soundtrack of my life: Shut Up - Black Eyed Peas

Got a new (to me) digi cam yesterday. Played with the macro mode tonight around my room... here's what I've got...
stuff on my desk pens...
book I'm reading words to describe me

Tuesday, February 3

A bit late getting to this one...
I lost my rock. My little purple rock that I carried everywhere with me. It not that the rock had really meaning to it, but it was mine and I thought it as part of me. I know you're thinking that it's just a dumb rock and all but bear with me. I got this rock at an LK class one day, most people threw theirs away cause it was just a rock, I picked rock very carefully and thought of it as something to hold on to. Well about 2 weeks ago, I lost it, totally gone, never to be found again. I feel like part of me is missing now too. It's like the cross I carry in my pocket. I've had it for the last 3 years or so, a gift from a co-worker that really wasn't thought to be too important either. I've carried it ever since. It's not so much that I treasure it, but I do value it. The meaning behind it is way more important than the little piece of aluminum that it looks like. It's been there for me for the past 3 years, reminding me of my faith and reminding me everytime I reach for change that I should have faith. This is how my rock made me feel too. The rock was a rock, nothing outwardly special. Now it's gone, I want it back, so if you come across a small purple rock, give it back to me will ya? I miss it.
Today was cold as crap and otherwise boring, but we are up day 4 of the monkey syndrome as I've named it. I will add a counter later to count the days that it keeps up. Is anyone else noticing this? Maybe I have only noticed it because I was noticing. Funny how when you look for something it's never there, the moment you stop, there it is... Metaphorical almost... Like when you look directly at a start it almost disappears but when you look just to one side, it's as bright as ever. Life can be so hard sometimes.
Friday we're going to a concert in Ft. Wayne with NewSong, Reliant K, and Audio A, should be fun. No date unfortunately, but a group of good friends is sometimes better anyways. I need a date for next Saturday, anyone wanna be my valentine? It comes with dinner, flowers, and lots of other surprises!... Pathetic I realize.
Now I have to get to Law before I forget everything I just read.

Monday, February 2

On monkeys and such...

Soundtrack of my life: In Da Club - 50 Cent

So I hear from a reliable source that you either hear or see the word "monkey," or see an actual monkey everyday. I found this out on Saturday, so far it's true. Someone said monkey to me both today and Saturday and yesterday I saw a website called just by randomness...I'm kinda weirded out by this. Why not alligator or perhaps koala... monkeys are a bit odd if you ask me. Whatever, maybe I'll start a new thing on the side, counting the number of days with a monkey occurrence. 3 days so far.
Today was dismal to say the least, not much at work, although I did make a return trip back to Kokomo in the slush cause I forgot some stuff there for Emmy. Grrr... Stupid me.
V-day is coming up soon, I need plans. I know what I want, will I get it is the real question. I dunno, I'm unmotivated to study or do much of anything lately, the weather sucks and life is just getting to dramatic again. People need to deal with their problems before they become everyone else's problem.
I've put off studying for the last 3 hours, I suppose I should get started soon...

*Life is too short for drama and petty problems.. so kiss slowly * love truly * forgive quickly... life is too short to be anything but happy... so take chances .. give everything and have no regrets*