Life or Something Close

Monday, November 8

I have witnessed a miracle tonight

I saw the northern lights tonight. It's the first time I've ever seen them in person. It was kind of eerie really. The sky was green with hints of orange and it was like the sky was in motion. Sweeping colors all over the place. I love it.
I think I’ve come to the point finally where I have to make some changes with my life. Tomorrow is a new beginning. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life, or some other cliché that means the same… I need to do this, not only for me, but for those around me who have spent so much time and effort trying to make it happen. I want it to; I just can’t seem to get the motivation to stick with it. Well here it is, I will stick with it. By January 1st, it will be done forever. I realize that it’s going to be hard; I realize that it’s going to be really hard. I’m going to be frustrated and cranky. But I have to do it. I want to say right now I’m sorry to all of you about how cranky I’m going to be for the next few days… it’ll pass I promise. What I saw tonight made me realize that there are too many things in this world that are bigger than me that I need to pay attention to and stop paying so much attention to myself. I’m working on the plan of how to do all this exactly, but I’ve got some ideas and that’s where it all has to start.
I’ve also been mulling over another idea for about a month and I think this is probably the best time to start it. I’m going to write a novel. Shocked? I am too. The way I see it, I’ve lived a pretty weird life, maybe I should share it with people. I’m going to write bits and pieces here and there based on some facts that I remember but parts of it will also be total fiction. Haven’t you ever wondered if you were going to live happily ever after? This way I will. J I’ve got an outline started. As things progress I’ll post a link here for you all to start reading and proofreading for me.
I really need to go to bed, it’s been a very thoughtful day, I’m going to fail. I know this, but I’ve got to get right back up and try again. Here’s to the future, here’s to life.

1 Comments:

  • Well, yay for you! It's about time, although I'd like to really see you follow through this time. As for your iPOD, well I just got mine today. I love it already, so good luck with getting yours. Definiately go to best buy and get the service warranty plan thingy. Best of luck to ya!

    By Anonymous, at 12:27 AM  

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