Life or Something Close

Sunday, January 25

I shouldn't write this now..

Soundtrack of my life: Cloud Of Witnesses - Mark Schultz

I am so frustrated with everyone right now... I could just scream. This weekend started out well enough with the gang going out to see Butterfly Effect. An absolutely amazing movie. I was in awe the entire time. It's one of those movies that just grabs you and pulls you in more and more as it goes on. Definitely something to see if you have the chance. After seeing everyone was extremely hyper still at midnight we all decided to go to Steak n Shake. Good times. All in all it was a good night. Some covert drama in the behind-the-scenes part of everything but it's all good. Saturday is probably when everything started to fall apart, to put it simply and vaguely. I said some things that I shouldn't have and someone else took it and blew it way out of proportion causing me to lose something I've had for 7 years. I had no chance to make it right and now that I know what I do, I'm almost glad it happened. It's funny how when the cards are really down, people's true opinions really come out about you. I should have learned along time ago what was going on and go out of things. But as usual I learn the hard way and this is one of those things I'll have to chalk up to experience. Maybe after the year has passed things will be better. We'll just have to see how this week is going to go down first. Another interesting thing happened on Saturday too. Someone who would have normally gone out with us didn't' on the grounds that certain members of out circle of friends weren't' going. Now normally people wont' show up because of other people being there but this time they wouldn't go because some people weren't going to be there. Whatever I guess some people are only your friends when it's convenient for them. Others just drink themselves into oblivion and try to pass it off as nothing serious and all that other crap. I'm seriously so sick of people today. Anyways moving on with last night, we sat at BWs for like 4 hours and just talked. Nothing important or exciting happened at all. After I got home and crashed around 1 cause I was dead tired I woke up this morning to utter hell breaking lose. Some of it is personal and shouldn't be put in such a public forum as this, since I know many more people read this than I know. Other stuff is just unbelievable and since I've vented about it already in this post I shall leave it alone. Today also was the day that I was going to study since I've slacked for about the last week on my HW. Well so far I've written a one page case brief and started a 3 page pager... I still have a ton of reading to do, but I'm just not in the mood after everything that's happened over the past few days. I have to study though, there's no way out of it. I haven't' even showered today... Of course I haven't' left the house, but still... I feel that I should maybe shower before bed or something tonight...hmmm... Its also blizzarding tonight... so far we have 2 inches in 2 hours... that's freakin nuts... tomorrow should be a good drive to work... Also to everyone out there that has a blog... post something now and then... some of you haven't posted in 2 weeks and I know you have stuff to say. We talked about what you should say. Anyway it's freakin time to get this stupid paper done...