Life or Something Close

Tuesday, December 30

Big Decisions...

I was given a huge decision to make today. I wish I could say more but honestly I think I should stay vague for a while still.... I was given the opportunity to totally change the course of my life today... I think for the better. But in return for this change I have to basically give up everythign I did/am doing to get where I am now. It woudl possibly make me happier in a more materialistic way but I don't know if it would make me happy in an everyday sort of way. I'm scared to screw up... This isn't like screwing up like wearing black socks with a brown belt or whatever.... it's like life screwed up. I feel like i'm giving up alot to get alot... where's the balance? Maybe I can just win the powerball or something ... $210 million would solve just about everything prolly... except that happiness thing...I'm going to bed.... we'll see what happens tomorrow I guess....