I went in early today, trying to get a head start on things. I got a ton done today. I was there about 9.5 hours but it felt like I did more than I do in 12 hours. I’ve still got some stuff left to do but for the most part I think tomorrow will be a relatively easy day.
I read something tonight while I was thinking about writing this and it totally struck me as amazing.
When you want something you’ve never had, you have to do something you’ve never done.
I have no idea why that had such profound meaning to me but it just struck a chord and rocked my world.
Here at the The Green things are actually pretty quiet, chili for supper tonight and just chilling in front of the TV for probably the 4th night in a row. It’s not bad but there’s part of me that feels like I should be working on something, there’s always something to do here. I guess I’ll just get through the pile on the weekend, hopefully.
It’s pouring outside, I just got up. It’s raining so hard you can’t see much of anything through the windows. It’s after 10 and still a little dark outside. No one is home, the house is completely silent. This is going to be a great day, I’m off to read the paper…
Sitting here, reading, the music became a white noise, unintelligable from anything else going on. The beats enveloped me as I left this world and fell into the book.
I read last night, that’s it just read. Actually I frantically searched for a hat and gloves, but after that and some food, I read. I’m reading Life of Pi by Yann Martel, so far so good. I put the TV on one of those music channels, Soft Classical actually, and tuned into my book. I finally got tired and went to sleep. It was honestly the best night I’ve had in a week or so.
What happened to fall? It was 65 on Tuesday, it thunderstormed that night now it’s about 25 and was freaking windy as crap last night! This pic was taken outside my house just a little while ago. Not cool! I’m done with this bitter cold/windy stuff. I like winter, just not the biting cold and wind, I love th snow and the quietness that comes with it. When will that get here. A better post is coming later today.
Wow. I totally turned my evening around. First off, right after I posted about being sick, I went upstairs in the library, put in my headphones, listened to a little Rob Costlow and started reading Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut. Quite possibly the greatest I’ve read in a long time. After about half an hour I called Erin and then went to the Breakfast House. I sat down, got a cup of coffee and continued reading. I read the **whole thing**, all 275 pages of it. Read this book!
I drank an amazing amount of coffee, I honestly lost track of how many cups I had in an hour and a half. I also enjoyed some people watching while I was there, nothing exciting, just people going about their lives. It’s fun to see how people act when they think no one is watching.
I honestly don’t think I could have been more relaxed than I was tonight. I was away from everything and it felt great. I had my music, a great book, and just peace and quiet. I loved every minute of it.
Of course after the Breakfast House I headed to Starbucks to enjoy a nice game of Poker with Jake, John, Kyle, and Orion. I lost, quickly, but it was still fun. I’m home now and headed to bed… I still feel like crap.
BTW, thanks for letting me borrow the book Danielle, a true classic, I loved every page.
Routine. I’m beginning to hate it. I just finished The Perks of Being a Wallflower. at the end it was kind of weird, I just closed the book and sat for a minute, thumbing the pages. There was a quiet, a good quiet. Peace, that’s the only word I can think of right now. Sure there are people walking around me, there are machines making noise, but right now it’s quiet for me. I really like that.
I’m kind of hiding out today trying to study a bit. I bombed my test, bad. I’ve got another one on Thursday and I must do well or I’m totally screwed. This is the one class that I can’t afford to do poorly in, I need it as a prereq for everything else I have left to take before graduation.
I need more peace. I need more quiet times. So much of my days are spent in “noisy” environments, everyone fighting to get a word in. Everyone fighting. I’m tired of it. I miss the old days.