I wonder if i can even do this anymore

I haven’t written in 3 years. I don’t know if I even know how to do this any more.

There used to be a time when I could site and write for hours on end about everything and nothing. No spelling errors, no problems with editing. Just sit and write about whatever was on my mind and get it all out out there for the world to see. For some reason that’s changed and I have no idea why.

I noticed that this blog is nearly 15 years old.  45% of my life has been chronicled here. And for some reason, 3 years ago, I stopped. As if the cup had run dry and I had nothing more to say.

There has been tons of stuff happening, the biggest of which is Caedmon. But even just day to day there has been that kind of boring, monotonous, bothersome stuff that filled the pages of this for years and year and brought tons of commentary from people I know and others out there in the world alike. I just don’t know why I had no desire to put fingers to keys and just get a few thoughts out from time time to time.

Even now as I type this, the words are hard to get out, the fingers aren’t moving as swiftly as they once did, the thoughts are struggling to make it to my fingers and get on the screen.

Perhaps the cup is empty, my story has been written and the rest is only for those close enough to experience it with me.

My public has become private and the privacy is its own gift.

Blogs Wane as the Young Drift to Sites Like Twitter – NYTimes.com

Blogs went largely unchallenged until Facebook reshaped consumer behavior with its all-purpose hub for posting everything social. Twitter, which allows messages of no longer than 140 characters, also contributed to the upheaval.No longer did Internet users need a blog to connect with the world. They could instead post quick updates to complain about the weather, link to articles that infuriated them, comment on news events, share photos or promote some cause — all the things a blog was intended to do.

via Blogs Wane as the Young Drift to Sites Like Twitter – NYTimes.com.

I think I can agree with this. I don’t post here, in fact most of my recent posts are posts made up of Tweets. I use Facebook, but mostly to keep track of people that aren’t on Twitter, or to augment their Twitter streams.

I still find myself wondering whether this site has value beyond the memory that it serves to preserve and if looking forward it might be best to close this site and just the content as a time capsule of times gone by.

Getting back into the swing of things

I think that the best way to move forward with this blog that is approaching 10 years old now is to give you a quick (very quick) update and then move back into the journaling that made this site was it once was.

Update since the last “real” post: Saw about 8 Indians games. Got married to Erin 09/09/09. Let it Be by the Beatles was “our” song, found out on the honeymoon it was written while Paul was on drugs and Mary came to him in a dream. Went to French Lick for the honeymoon, gambled with $30 walked out an hour later with $30. Spent all summer working on the wedding and the house. The backyard grass is growing nicely. The front yard looks like crap. Money dried up for working on the yard/house early in the summer. Work has been up and down, I work on the stone CNC machine now and pretty much love working with machines and my hands now. Setup the Man Cave in the basement over the last 2 weeks and now have everything pretty much where I want it. Became entirely sick of politics, health care, the wars, etc., I just don’t care anymore really right now.

OK, so now that we’re up to date, sorta, let’s move forward.

Today was the first day that we’ve needed the furnace. It was 68 in the house when Erin got home, of course it didn’t light or even turn the blower motor on. Called the guy and found out that yet again the transformer went out, fixed, warm again.

The CNC has been having problems all over the place lately. Today I fixed the halo water and then broke the spindle water, that may not mean much to most people but suffice to say that I fixed one problem and created another one. This is all on top of the electrical problems I’ve been having with it. It never ends.

I mowed today, the grass wasn’t too long but more importantly I got the leaves picked up.

Today was also the day that I finally broke my lease at the apartment. I’m getting my deposit back and 2 days rent as well, if I would have known that they were returning the rent money I would have broken it a week ago. Oh well, a little found money is just as good I suppose.

In a few days I should have everything put away from the apartment and feel totally moved in I suppose.

We still have to write thank you notes, 3 weeks after the wedding, is that too late? I guess something is better than nothing right?

How should I say hello again?

I’m back, at least for now. I’ve said many many times before that I’m back and that the long delays between postings is over, this time I mean it, for now.
I wondered when sitting down to write this post how I should write it, should I jump right in and continue on as if the last 3 and a half months hasn’t happened? Should I try to catch you all up on the entire summer? should I just give up and accept that the last post of this blog has long since been published and the 210,000 words I wrote over the last 8 plus years were the last I would write?
I think I’ll do a mix of all three actually. I’m not sure that I have it in me really to sit here at the keyboard and pontificate, procrastinate, and whine my way through post after post about everything and nothing.
Over the summer much has happened. So much has happened that I honestly can’t remember it all. I enjoyed my 20 pre-paid Indianapolis Indians tickets immensely, we went to 8 games I believe. All but the final game of the season was great. The final game, we scalped our tickets for less than 25% of the face value and had great ribs at Famous Dave’s.
Erin continues work on her house. It’s coming together really well and honestly looks amazing! When I first walked in to the house I wondered how it would ever be fixed again. She did it.
Work today was definitely different. Our monthly meeting was today, it was interesting to say the least. I think there might be some changes still forthcoming in the next little while that could affect us greatly. We are still on the cusp of either doubling our size or staying exactly where we are and just gearing up for the busy fall season that no one seems to ever understand except the 500 or so people that will buy new counter tops this year.
Things with me over all are pretty good to be quite honest. Erin and I started Dave Ramsey’s Financial Peace University this fall. While we have only been to one class thus far, I feel like we are making progress in our relationship and with our money. It’s about taking control of your money, tell it what to do instead of being told by it what to do. My goal is to have my $1000 baby emergency fund completed before the class is over in December. I have also called and reduced my credit card interest rates and actually canceled 2 of them. The others will follow soon I’m sure. I have a quickie budget finished and actually have started taking it a step further. I realize that I am very lucky to be where I am today, my problem has always been that I didn’t have a plan for my money. Now I’m working that out and want to be ahead from now on.
So that was pretty much all over the place. I promise you no less in my future posts. Hopefully you’ll be back to read this soon before I post again.

Evolution on the web

ev·o·lu·tion – A gradual process in which something changes into a different and usually more complex or better form.

Things must change, things must differ over time. In the 8 years and 135 days that I’ve been posting to this blog. I’ve written a lot. I’ve written very little too. Posts of pictures, quotes, links to sites that some of you don’t really care about are all things that I think have cluttered up this site at times. When I mo-blog from my phone it adds length to the site that really isn’t needed, when I post links to sites, I’m sure many of you just pass over the post without any regard for what content might be there.

Over the past few months I’ve thought about changing what I do here, how I do it and what kinds of other content I might like to do. I registered and hosted a new domain but wasn’t sure what I wanted to do with it. I played with new equipment, tools, and software. I looked at old and new technologies as well as ideas of things still in the pipeline.

I don’t want to get rid of this site. I definitely don’t want to delete it and start over. I want to expand it. I want to make it something on its own with supporting sites coming and going adding content and value. I started with the idea of another WordPress Blog, too much effort to keep up and post to, I went to a podcast, I even recorded one episode that has since go by the way side, way too much to record and post a show when I’m in a hurry. I wanted something quick to post from, like from my phone via SMS, MMS, or even a quick post from a website. I wanted multimedia capabilities, an attractive interface, and a simple design. I wanted light-weight blogging with little effort basically.

I’ve started a Tumblelog. I’m using the Tumblr service and software to basically create more of a stream of consciousness. I Tweet, I blog, now I’m going to put the things that are too long to tweet and too short or just not right for blogging there. Some call this a lifestream, a microblog, a nanoblog, lifelogging and who knows what else, it’s what I want to post at that moment. It’s quick, easy and not written over a long period of time. That’s what this site will remain for, long posts with true content. Not quick photos and quips and quotes.

What is the site you ask? Apartment721.com, there’s even a mobile version for those of you with iPhones, Blackberries and the like, Apartment721.com/mobile.

I’ll post semi-regularly (hopefully) and there will be links back to my tweets and blogs there. You might think of it as more of a central site for me, if you look there you’ll see my tumbl’s (?), tweets, and blog posts as they are all posted. Then you can click the posts to dig further. All in all I hope that this helps me put out more content in a way that everyone wants to see it and keeps the clutter off of this site.

Drop a comment, let me know what you think, although remember that design tweeks are still being made to the new site, be gentle. Things are changing, and I think its a good thing.

Vacation Day 1

I took off the rest of the year from work (except for 15 minutes via the web on Friday/Saturday at the end of the month). 11 days of no work basically. I have some plans, painting, relaxing, cleaning, etc. I’m going to try to blog about each day at it goes.

I planned to wake up early today, head to the bank and then head out to finish my Christmas shopping before it got too crazy out. Didn’t happen. I woke up at 1045, I finally got out of the house at 1130, the bank closes at 12 and it’s 35 minutes away. I made it to the bank. Then I headed off to the mall. Everyone else got up before 1045 or didn’t have to go to the bank because they were already there.

I think I literally walked a quarter mile to get in the place. I headed to my first stop, sold out. Second stop, long lines but they had what I needed. Third stop, longer lines but they have staggard lines (half close to the door, half a little farther back) I ran to one of the closer to the door ones, around about 6 other people, and got out quickly. Did I break a rule or some kind of social more by doing that? I don’t care particularly, it’s Christmas time and it’s every man for themself.

I’m back home now and totally just relaxing, while doing some laundry, I need to clean the house but I’m just not in the mood today. Maybe late tonight or tomorrow, or next week.

Relaxation.

After outting update: Erin and I went out with Kyle tonight. We ran into my grandparents and they even bought us dinner.  Nice. We headed out to Best Buy and the mall. It’s always an adventure, though we didn’t go to Penney’s for towels (inside joke). All in all it was a pretty good time. It’s raining out now but the night was great with great friends and always interesting conversation.

Christmas Vacation is on Tivo now, my favorite holiday movie after A Christmas Story. What can I say, I’m a little demented. I’ve enver seen White Christmas or It’s a Wonderful Life, so I go with what I know. Heading to bed soon so I can do nothing tomorrow but football and chillin’.

8 years!

On November 30, 1999 I made the first blog post of my life. In the last 8 years I’ve posted 1,554 posts with over 200,000 words.

In all those years much has changed. New friends, new loves and hates, new jobs. So much in what has been essentially 1/3rd of my life.  It’s really kind of amazing when you think about it, for nearly 1 out of every 3 years that I’ve been alive, I’ve been keeping track of triumphs and tribulation averaging one post every 2 days.

Over the years I’ve been met by people who think that blogging is worthless or useless. I beg to differ, it’s my outlet, my escape, my place to be me and sometimes its just there to mark occasion. As I’ve said before, it’s my space, way be there was that horrendous thing known as MySpace.

I hope you’ve all enjoyed the insight into my mind and my life. There have been some hard posts to write, some that I wish I would have taken more time with and some that I still question their value. If you don’t blog, or don’t blog enough I would encourage you to post now and then, make it a habit, say something, anything is better than nothing. In a few years you can look back at what you thought was important and realize that life is in control of you much more than you are controlling it.